Shrimp, Grits, N' Pimp Sh*t

                  The first night in that "rental property" was so wild. Surreal, even. I can't even really explain it. The concept of sleeping in a bed had become so foreign to me, I almost couldn't get to sleep to start with, had I not been so comfortable and exhausted. I just can't believe that one random trip to Solar was what did it for me. I always heard of "angels" and "God putting certain people in your path on purpose", but this was something straight out of a movie. Like, a whole ass miracle. I couldn't believe it. One night, I'm sleeping on a New Crest park bench trying to get as comfortable as I could, and the next, I have a furnished apartment... With a bed.          Now, the first look of it, it wasn't much, like Ms. Erica had said. The furniture was a little bit worn; second hand, I'm guessing. There was a smell lingering in the place like a door or a window hadn't been cracked in years, but I gu...

          As usual, I spent my day around the city just exploring. I realized as long as I've been here I've only visited and been attracted to one spot and that's the park. I decided to get a little adventurous today and visit a lounge a few blocks away from my usual spot.           It was a cute little place, red ropes out front making it look kind of upscale or whatever, but from the looks of the people going in, it was casual. There was no cover charge to get in, so in I went. For some reason, I'm feeling really self-conscious. All the people in here are with their friends or mates; laughing and joking, and here I am just alone. Looking alone. I wish I had a cellphone or something because at least then I could pretend to be waiting on someone instead of just sitting here floating around in this club like an awkward cloud. I decided to head upstairs to the more intimate area because the pressure was becoming too much.    ...

I guess I'll start by saying I'm Janessa! I'm 19 years old, independent... And of course gorgeous. *Flips hair* I just recently moved to New Crest... Trying to get on my feet because after high school I just wanted to get away. The only person I had looking after me, my father joined some crazy religious... Thing. I wanted no parts of it. He told me I could either roll with him or be by myself because "this is just how it's going to work now". I hated school, so college was definitely a NO... I don't trust this country enough to join its military, so that was a HELL NO. I'm just trying to figure out what I'm going to do soon... I don't have any assistance, I barely have anywhere to stay, I'm just here. I figured if I was thrown into a situation where I had no other way to go but UP, I'd be there in no time. But I don't know if this is going to work. I'm scared. Terrified even. I have my days where sometimes I just want to ba...